Tracks Of Tears.

I'VE BEEN BETRAYED, PUNISHED, AND BEATEN DOWN TO LITTLE PIECES. Outside, I maybe masquerading yet inside, my hope is fading.The past days of this week hasn't been any good for me. I tried my very best to be in proper behavior. Guess what? Today didn't go any better either. Anyways, who would think your very best friends could ever betray you? I mean, it's like they never keep their promises. They try their very bests to please you whenever they need you. They're never there to support you. They try to take advantage of you and your big ideas. They put you down. They abuse you. They disrespect you. They even turn away from you when you need them the most. What's that supposed to mean? 'She' made a mark in me that I'll forever live with. From her, I learned to be strong and to stand for MY thing all the time, no matter what. I wish my life were better. I've already jumped into conclusions that friends could never be trusted and that I should always hold on to me as myself and not the 'me' people presume me to be. 

And again, how far would you go to keep a clean reputation? If so, is because you really mean is it, or because you need something from it? :| 

I LOATHE YOU. 

Forbidden.

 My so called friends just punched a hole way down the borderline of my so called life. I may be loathing  and over reacting,  but I will not take any of it in much longer. How about you, how far would you go to keep a good reputation? If so, would you do it? I WOULDN'T.

I'm No Superman.

"Something has changed within me. Something is not the same. I'm through with playing by the rules of someone else's game. "

My week has been an almost threatened, over endangered, dramatical broadway production. For numerous reasons, which I cannot decipher nor tell you frankly, my week has been this.. terrible. So, my classmates and I are on our way towards the top of the world. DOOM. But, that's not until we collect as much funds as we're supposed to, and unfortunately we never hit rock bottom. So, NO. Another fail. 

Next on my list, is well our so called plans and more failures. I've been trying to get myself to blog over the week and even the weekend but I failed to do so. I've been hanging by a thread lately. I've been trying to convince my mates on getting over with something, something I can talk about publicly. 

Another stupid thing that has been pissing me off are eavesdroppers. I mean, what is their problem? Do they actually think they can garner victory by listening to other people's important conversations? Isn't privacy even in their vocabulary? We went 'hopping' today, if you know what I mean. And well, you could never stop the walls from having ears or the beta's from copying their alpha's, right? So, as we went along, I never took notice of the tag-along, if that's what you'd like to call them, who kept tagging along like some freak show trying to spy on us. That made my almost perfect day. 

Lastly, I'm no superman. I cannot and never will please anyone. I cannot and never will try to take pleasure from your pain. I cannot and never will do anything beyond my limitations. I've been treated badly for 10 months or a entire school year and I will not take it and turn it into some farse. I'm through with playing by the rules of your game.